My schedule has been, well, nonexistent the past 9 months with moving, spending every other week on trail, and visiting my boyfriend as often as possible. I am looking forward to getting back into routine that lasts more than a month. In the mean time, I am really enjoying spending extra time with my boyfriend before he goes away for three months, and soaking up some warmth in California.
Sometimes traveling can be a little stressful when you are trying to be healthy. I know, personally, it can be difficult to get away from my normal workout routines and eating habits. Sometimes this lack of control can send me spiraling into a fit of anxiety, and even self-hatred. It’s so funny that in an effort to be healthy, I can stress myself out for constantly falling short, considering how terribly stress can impact our health. It’s a draining process, and one that I am really working on letting go of. I know I have struggled with food restriction, and basing my self-worth on the amount of time I had spent in the gym that day. While those days are now behind me, I still struggle with falling back into that judgement mentality.
My goal this week is the ENJOY and ALLOW. Rather than getting caught up into self-judgement, I want to make the most of this time. Soon, my boyfriend and I will be away from each other for quite a while. It is so special to spend time in a beautiful place with someone I love.
I recognize my struggles may look very different from those of your own. If you’ve been letting go of any self-harming habits or thoughts of judgement, I’d love to hear how you are doing it! It’s a journey that we all share in various ways, and it’s really awesome to share ideas on what helps.
I hope you have a beautiful day.